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This music is a meditation, or at least an attempt to represent one. With any attempt to quiet the mind, there are constant distractions and thoughts that lead us away from the place of quiet. This always frustrated me whenever I would try these sorts of practices. But then one day someone told me that the quiet moments are not the point and the distraction is in fact necessary. It is the moment of returning from meandering thought to stillness, not the stillness itself, that can be most rewarding in meditative practice. I found this such a fascinating concept and one that could be a beautiful exploration in music. This piece is a series of these moments, of varying length, depth, and intensity, where a tangential thought is noticed and we ease back into quiet.


~ June , 2021 | New York, NY~